Hoping for a Baby Bump

     Hi Everyone! WELCOME to my blog Hoping for a Baby Bump! My name is Becky and I just turned 40 years old in September. I have been married for 20 years to Mike and have one son who is 11, Anthony. This blog is going to be about my attempt and my success (I never say never) on achieving a 2nd healthy and full term pregnancy at 40. 

     Let me start by saying that I really struggled getting pregnant the first  time. I had been married almost 10 years when I found out I was pregnant with Anthony. I had honestly completely given up hope of ever conceiving. I won't go into 9 years of infertility but will sum it up in a few sentences (hopefully). All through my adulthood I had been considered obese. This had caused me (along with PCOS) to have very irregular menstrual cycles. If I had a period it could be a year until my next one. This of coarse made it impossible to tell if I was ovulating or not. I went to a fertility doctor who told me if I lost weight I would have more consistent menstrual cycles. I dropped about 75 lbs through diet and exercise over the next year. My periods started getting more regular. I had never charted my ovulation or even taken an ovulation predictor test. Over the next 8 years my husband and I never used protection. I need to say that both hubby and I were tested for infertility and they couldn't find any problems. 8 years of trying every month and still no pregnancy. I had come to the conclusion that i would never become pregnant. One day I noticed my breasts hurt more than usual. I was at my sisters house and mentioned how bad my breasts hurt and she said "Could you be pregnant?" . I was secretly thinking "I can't get pregnant". I began to think and realized  I should of already gotten my period that month. She went and got a test and I took it. Just like I thought it was negative. About a week went by and my breasts got worse and I was feeling extremely tired as well. I called my husband at work and asked him to get another test on his way home. I told him if it turned out negative like I thought then I was going to the doctor the next day because something was wrong with me. I took the test and before I had time to wash my hands 2 lines appeared. I literally did a double take. After almost 10 years of failed pregnancy tests I never thought I would see a positive one. You could of knocked me over with a feather. Luckily that pregnancy resulted in a healthy boy who is now 11 and my entire life. 

     As Anthony is getting older I find myself missing having a little one who relies on me. Don't get me wrong. I adore my son and enjoy everyday I get to experience motherhood. I do however long for the experience of doing it all over again. So that leads me to this blog. My husband and I have always said it would be great to have another child but not until recently have we been financially in a place where it would be feasible. We have bought a house and have become more financially stable over the last 18 months. We know with my age that it is now or never. So I hope it will be now.  Starting today I am going to be 100 percent invested in trying to conceive. I have to try. If it doesn't happen I will be very heart broke....BUT, I promised God years ago if he would let me just have 1 child I would never complain. Complain I will  not. I am grateful for the past 11 years of motherhood and if I can't conceive I will take it BUT I will never say it won't happen. I learned that lesson the day I saw the positive pregnancy test. 

     I am eagerly waiting on the mail person to deliver the mail. I have ordered the Clearblue Easy digital fertility monitor and test strips to track my ovulation. One thing I have learned is that even though my periods are pretty regular the day I ovulate varies every month. This is a big cause of concern for me and therefore why
I bought the monitor. We've had a huge snow and artic temperatures have closed the schools down for 3 days now so mail delivery is behind as well. The roads are so bad that the trucks haven't been able to make it to Walmart and they are out of most things. It's crazy. Any how it is supposed to be here today and at the latest tomorrow. So tomorrow's post will be the unboxing of the monitor and hopefully my first test. Almost time for my little man Anthony to get home so I will sign off for now. If you are trying to conceive then please share your story with me. I am willing to share anything I've been through with you. Til then....never stop hoping for a Baby bump:) #ttc #infertility #pregnancy